Post by SubZero on Mar 24, 2014 0:15:45 GMT -6
You've been warned. This is some depressing [nuts ]. If you don't want to take part in the depressing side of me, close this tab now and walk away...
It's 2am and I've just been sitting here, motionless, for about 3 hours. In general, I don't talk about matters of the heart to people. At least not the things that truly effect me. My private life is pretty much my private life. That said, I needed a place to dump. What better place than to my "pixel friends". I mean, you're not really real anyway. You're just voices and pictures over the internet so what harm is there in talking, right?
Here goes... My Grandmother (who is, for all intents and purposes, my mother. She raised me, her address is my permanent address, etc..) was rushed to the hospital today with difficulty breathing. In the ambulance she actually died and they revived her. At the hospital she died again, and once again they revived her. Her lungs were filling with fluid and she is currently in the ICU. About 4 hours ago the doctors sedated her and put her on quite a few machines, ventilator and whatnot... They said she'd be ok until morning and things were looking like she might make it. I guess I'll have to trust them.
I'm not sure if any of you have lost a mother or literally watched a loved one die, but I can say it's the most helpless feeling I've ever felt. At 6'1", 240lbs. and the strength of a team of oxen there haven't been many times in my adult life that I've felt completely and utterly helpless. To see a frail 5' tall 100 lb. woman fighting for life was a rough one to take. She kept squeezing my hand every time she would hear me sniffle so I know she was there somewhere. Shortly after that they sedated her and she's been..."resting"... ever since. The doctors said if they can get the fluids out of her lungs she's got a chance.
I don't know... I've been a disaster all day. I just needed to say something to "someone" before I lost my mind. Thanks for listening, UO People. Make sure to kiss your loved ones an extra time tonight. You never know when it's your turn.
It's 2am and I've just been sitting here, motionless, for about 3 hours. In general, I don't talk about matters of the heart to people. At least not the things that truly effect me. My private life is pretty much my private life. That said, I needed a place to dump. What better place than to my "pixel friends". I mean, you're not really real anyway. You're just voices and pictures over the internet so what harm is there in talking, right?
Here goes... My Grandmother (who is, for all intents and purposes, my mother. She raised me, her address is my permanent address, etc..) was rushed to the hospital today with difficulty breathing. In the ambulance she actually died and they revived her. At the hospital she died again, and once again they revived her. Her lungs were filling with fluid and she is currently in the ICU. About 4 hours ago the doctors sedated her and put her on quite a few machines, ventilator and whatnot... They said she'd be ok until morning and things were looking like she might make it. I guess I'll have to trust them.
I'm not sure if any of you have lost a mother or literally watched a loved one die, but I can say it's the most helpless feeling I've ever felt. At 6'1", 240lbs. and the strength of a team of oxen there haven't been many times in my adult life that I've felt completely and utterly helpless. To see a frail 5' tall 100 lb. woman fighting for life was a rough one to take. She kept squeezing my hand every time she would hear me sniffle so I know she was there somewhere. Shortly after that they sedated her and she's been..."resting"... ever since. The doctors said if they can get the fluids out of her lungs she's got a chance.
I don't know... I've been a disaster all day. I just needed to say something to "someone" before I lost my mind. Thanks for listening, UO People. Make sure to kiss your loved ones an extra time tonight. You never know when it's your turn.
